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Am I strong? by eve17, literature

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Am I strong?

“Two years long and nowhere near as strong. The mention of your name brings so much pain. Screaming out because I don’t feel sain. Falling apart constantly because I claim to be suffering. I want to love you again and not miss you till my days end. I need your presence with me. I’m a lost child needing your guiding hand. Jumped off my path because it got a little rocky. What’s my next step? I lost the light at the end of the tunnel. Now only darkness embraces as I continue falling. Forever falling into my infinity. I need something more. Something with no more tears. I feel that I have cried too many years

Motionless by eve17, literature

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Motionless

“Lying motionless on the floor. All I can do is stare intently at the door. Quietly hoping that he won’t do it anymore, That he stay in the other room and leave forever more. The hope for no more fighting and no more crying. Living a life with blinders on thinking one sided. All you ever speak are lies that make nothing but tears in your loves eyes. Love, the one you claim to care about. The one that continues to taint me with your twisted ways You hurt her; you beat her, and curse her life with pain. “Why am I with you? “ Those are the words that runs threw her head every time he’s near her. Looking ou

Walk into the night by eve17, literature

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Walk into the night

“You talk like you know me. You talk like you own me. A voice so deep that there are no words. Just a rhythm and meaning behind them. Dark of thought but I’m pure of heart. Pass over the threshold and what do you see? You see a conformist that you claim is me. There is no eye to eye. Just bunch of screw you’s and that I wish you would die. Curses, shouts, screams and retorts. The shortest temper I’ve ever seen, But I’m your last resort. There is a pain so deep that it even aches me. A chill so deep to the bone that wants you to never be alone. Hold me close and never let go. Don’t let me fall bec

End of the Road by eve17, literature

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End of the Road

She walks into the room and walks over to her boyfriend who is sitting on the couch with his laptop computer on the table in front of him surfing the web for some new tunes. As she is walking over to him she hums a song that he has never heard, but he’s to into the computer to actually acknowledge it. She sits on his lap and lays her head on his shoulder. She asks him plainly what he is doing and he simply and flatly replies that he’s looking for some new songs on the internet. He puts his arms around her so to fix himself better to have both hands on the computer. She kisses his neck and says that she has a new song for him. She lo

User by eve17, literature

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User

I have my paper and pen. Filled with words of consequence. Now I have that, now let us begin. I get up every morning and put on my disguise. Mascara, a little paint, some blush here and there, eyeshadow and glasses to cover my eyes, And my smile that conceal my lies. I say I like you, that I truly do. A giggle here, a giggle there. Saying nothing then saying I care. All nice sentiments in the beginning. I look at my hand and stare at the putty you’ve become. A piece if clay for me to mold. Should I crush you? You already bend to my whim. Make some tweaks here, an adjustment there. My piece is finished but I don’t

Do you know my truths? by eve17, literature

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Do you know my truths?

Do you know my truths? Understand my words. See the difference between my verbs. You call me out because you see a lie. Something that doesn’t seem at all right. So our words collide and then we start to fight. Conflict of the deceiving minds. A battle begins and my world starts to end. Breaking into my words, Cutting my sentences. I can’t lose this. My life hangs in the balance. Can’t remember what I’ve said. Feeling like I’m tangled in vines of my own lies. Screaming out lines that mean too much on the inside. Finally the truth comes out and you see what I’ve cried. This is my war. You’re

The Struggle by eve17, literature

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The Struggle

"Depressed faces, Tears in eyes. Something wanted to cry about. Nothing but intense emotion too complex to realize that it's going to take me apart from the inside out. Pieces of bits unseen to me so that I don't understand it. Completely ignorant to what I'm feeling. Wish it was just only pain because it would make more sense. Thought that it would be easy to pin point my focus of cause so to take away the agony. But I'm just lost in my understanding of myself. Why? That's all I ask. I don't need the constant reassurance that I exist, I see it threw my own eyes. Pushing away from the conformity programmed into my brain. T

Deep by eve17, literature

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Deep

"I'm confused. I wanna die because my emotions are all locked up inside while I tried and confide in my friends, but they push me away like a disease. A virus ready to make a break out. suppose to move on but I'm trapped. Frustrated with the way I was treated and all the words said that seemed to poison me. Stuck in the cement in the middle of the road. I'm a rose in a concrete world. Just doesn't belong and yet I'm here making myself seen. Hear me with your heart, see me with your eyes, love me with your soul. Roots run so deep into that ground as I continue to develop the real me I grow on. To know, to fight

Sometimes I feel so sick by eve17, literature

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Sometimes I feel so sick

"I feel hurt I feel pain I feel like I wanna cry every time I think about your name I feel betrayed I feel hated I feel like everything I do isn't enough for the world I feel helplessly dependent I feel deeply restrained I feel like the next step I make is going to end in heartache I feel that I should open up but I'm too afraid I feel hesitant I feel sick I feel like if I don't scream life is going to eat at me I feel abandoned I feel lonely I feel constantly insecure I feel unsafe I just feel so pained!!"

Say you 'will' by eve17, literature

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Say you 'will'

"Didn't have much to say when I saw you. Now that you're gone, the words come pouring into my mind. I don't want to say goodbye. The words just make it seem like the final chapter in a sad story. There is no easy way to say what I feel right now. Avoiding the words that just seem to fall between us. Our feelings are just stuck inside. Not wanting to show anything because we're afraid of what will happen. Will anything happen? My mind screaming for my mouth to open and just say something. Words rolling off my tongue and falling apart in the air. Both our eyes seem to say the same thing. We don't want this to be the end. What will

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'Untitled' by eve17, literature

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'Untitled'

"There is no me to see. Seeing life threw my green eyes. All I see are constant lies. Lives of lies. Crying tears of innocent pain. Dreaming of world of passion, living in my own world of obsessions. Waiting for the one to wake me from my deep glass dream world. Forget me not, but you'll forget me always. Let me die. Don't cry for me because you'll never remember me. This is a world of obsessions seen threw my deep green eyes of a innocent with a broken heart!"

thinking by eve17, literature

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thinking

"Its been a long time since I've picked up my pen and paper and written my feelings out or even anything worth writing. Sometimes I wish my emotions didn't exist. I feel the so much pain lately, just so much pain. I feel like just crying myself away. I can't…won't trust anyone anymore. My tears try to show how much I wish I wasn't there. There's nothing to understand about me. No one is allowed to touch me. I can seriously feel my heart breaking, shattering to pieces and disappearing. Sometimes I wish that the one person I truly had the most feelings for, the most emotion for would just show me the effort and cut the bullshit. But

Dark EvE by eve17, literature

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Dark EvE

"Now is the time to open your eyes and finally see the dark side of me. No ones seen this part of me. A part of me that I keep hidden deep in my soul. Never really existed until now. Not that there is so much darkness in her heart. I am the darkness, I am the little voice in her head, I'm the green behind her eyes. I am dark eve. Feels all the pain. Knows only rage. I know the pain that she feels, ignores. You think she's mean, you haven't met me. The things I would do... To people, to her guy, to any likely target. The things I would say. She's completely kawaii and completely innocent. With me, I would be perfectly h

Dreams by eve17, literature

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Dreams

"I like to sleep a lot. So I dream a lot. In my dreams there this guy that is really nice to me. He says such things to me. He hugs me. He makes me happy. He's everything possible for me. Its like that every dream. We hang out and we get along. My dream guy has finally come along. Then I wake up and come back to my reality. That I'm loveless and alone and it was only a dream. But tonight is different. Everything starts out the same but I feel something different. I look into his eyes and I see a new intention. He holds me different. He hugs me different. He talks to me different. Its like his presence is casting a spell

Am I calm? by eve17, literature

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Am I calm?

Tears roll down a dark face as a dark cloud weeps in the night because of the lover it lost. Were we lovers or friends? I don't know now. I can't know now. All I know is that we were together and you were mine. As a last word to you, I love you. You didn't know it and probably never noticed it. I didn't know it until now as everything that was blinding my eyes cleared. A lake of nothing as empty as the air. Gaining sanity when a deep voice listened so closely to on the phone. Concentrating on every word said. Mumbling words back no making sense even in my mind. Staring. Taking in every part of your being. Captivating every

stuck by eve17, literature

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stuck

" Stuck in one place, Hearts going 90 miles the other way. Tried to scream to you, but my voice is gone. Turned into little whispers in the wind. Running in the darkness of the night. Passing by like a dark cloud in a grey sky. Never realized I was there, not even in the beginning. I can see my reflection in the darkest water. Why doesn't anyone seem me? Living in a loud world, but not making any noise. Trying to affect the little riples in the quiet pond. Making my life known!"

In-between the lines by eve17, literature

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In-between the lines

"I only write when it suites me. Trying to let it all out so you can see what I'm saying on paper. Can you read between the lines? In-between the lines, the words, the letters. What am I trying to say? Always talking about pain and seeing thru my eyes, You would too if you were crying on the inside. Outside I'm a ghost here along for the ride. Pencil in hand, blasting the music, and writing what is real. Deal with the truth because that's all I'm gonna give you. You still reading between the lines? I cry out to a shadow to save me, Fallen into an empty ocean waiting to be taken away. Look into the stars and tell me what you see?

Why me by eve17, literature

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Why me

"I've forgotten the lies from yesterday. Why do I keep going back? Taking 5 steps forward in a good direction to take a million steps back. I hear the phone ringing but the voice that I want to hear is no longer on the other end. Vision is so foggy, focus is gone. What am I to do? I want to scream out and say so many things but when I actually try and say them they come out as little whispers in the wind. Writing it down comes out as not clear and completely transparent. How does everything seem so clear and then become so unfocused? Inspiration comes in burst of long breaths; you only get a few of those. I have something

Time to Disappear by eve17, literature

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Time to Disappear

"Time to disappear Go back to a place I don't want to be near. Living my life in fear of the unknown. What can I do next when I'm too afraid to take the next step? Life's questions knocking at my door demanding me to open. Me sitting in the corner ignoring their pleas. This isn't me. I don't put things off. I deal with everything head on, don't I? I don't know myself anywhere. Seeing only insecurities. I'm a shadow of myself. No longer the person I was before. To cry is to let the lies out. Reveal my secrets. What is wrong with me? Maybe I should just runaway from everything and disappear. Life would a more interesting with m

Say you 'will' by eve17, literature

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Say you 'will'

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Deviant for 19 years
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Current Residence: AZ
Favourite genre of music: anything i can chill to or whatever gets me krunk lol
Favourite style of art: Abstract
Favourite cartoon character: Gir from Invader Zim and I can do his voice too ^_^
Personal Quote: "oh shut you ass!!"

Favourite Visual Artist

Aaliyah, DMX, Erykah Badu, Dwele, Evanescence,....and many more

Favourite Movies

Anything but country and techno lol.

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Crossfade and 30 Seconds to Mars

Favourite Writers

um...Taba ^_^

Favourite Games

Tomb Raider games, Harry Potter games, and Halo

Favourite Gaming Platform

xbox and gamecube

Other Interests

all of the above...anything extreme

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eve17

Jul 24, 2007

omg!!

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i actually think i have nothing new to write aboutO_O. i've been very angry lately and thats usually when i do some good writing...but i haven't. i need to write because there is so much stuff i wanna get off my chest...get out of my head and there seems to be no out for me at the moment. its just kind of all stuck!! O_O scary!!

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eve17

May 30, 2007

...breathing slowly!!

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so...i've been having a little issue with my writings once again. i start something and half way threw it the writing starts to change and go onto a different subject....its kind of annoying. i can't seem to finish anything at all lately... like it takes me insane concentration to try and get even half way but i can easily just finish my easy ass homework. makes no sense. i know its because i started out having all this insane inspiration that was totally making me feel better and just...good vibes that i needed....and then.....shit happened... and then everything just went poof....no more inspiration... no more me actually caring ya know. we

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eve17

Oct 23, 2005

I'm back!!!

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I've returned to Dev art finally after a huge break. I decided that I really needed to give myself the oulet I use to have last year that really helped me get threw everything going on in my life... even though it was mostly threw my wiriting and I'm willing to admitt that most of my writing was abuot cameron. I'm willing to show a little faith and show a different side of me if I'm able too. So please show some love and leave comments. ^_^